Chapters
As I Am
Why Now?
Flawed Memory & Present Reality
Me First
What For?
Introspection
Me
Family Tree
The Clarks
Ghost Story
Pence Stetsons
Sunday Dinner
Singing Cowboy
My Family: Early Years
Grade School
Fontenelle Boulevard: December 1947–October 1948
52nd Street: October 1948–April 1952
- Attic Fear & Exploding Marshmallow
- Aroma of Words
- Teddy & Buddy
- Glints & Gleams
- The Inkblot
Hamilton Street: April 1952–April 1954
- Sylvia in the Air
- Muscle Shirt
- I Can Read
North 56th Street: April 1954–June 1960
- Glasses
- Fingertip & Encounter at Dusk
- My Best Year: Transcendent Kisses
- The Fatman Goes Sitz & Upside Down in October
Middle School
Cafeteria Rep
Dance Class & Shortie George
Wart & Double-Features
Sunburn & Phone Pranks
Peony Park & Formals
High School
Sports
1959: Death Comes in Threes
I've Created Dad
Lucy
Soar Arms
Kirkwood
562 North Taylor Avenue: June 1960–June 1966
Psycho
College
Smoking Riff
Jim & Lynda
After College
Air Force & Law School
Uncle Ernie RIP
Death & Mobility
Alternate Life: Confidence Man
Stone Sober
Time Jump
Entrances & Exits
The Fatman: 1987
- Personal Essayist: Montaigne
- The Fatman Goes Scuttlebutt Recycled
Dogs
- Shaila: 1979–1989
- Cindy: 30 August 1989–18 May 2004
- Sunny: 11 November 2003–17 January 2019
- Sweetie: June 2006–April 2010
- Maxi: 24 December 2008
1727 South 140th East Avenue, Tulsa, Oklahoma: 1987–2012
Glen RIP
In Memory of Gary
Markedly Pensive
Mom & Ann
Mom RIP: 2000
- Of Mouse & Mom
- Just Words
Ann RIP: 2004
- Eulogy for Ann Glassco
- Love, Ann: A Likeness in Words
Family Fun
Brad & Irene
Jim & Lynda
Nieces & Nephews
Trane
Ponderous Pondering
Character: Serious Man
Lifestyle
Emotions
Romance in the Dark
Belief Systems
Retrospection
Holidays & Remembrances
Holidays: 2009–2016
5204 South Narcissus Ave., Broken Arrow, Oklahoma: August 2012
Remembrance of Aunt Betty
Holidays: 2017–2020
- Was It Proust?
- Time Is Up
- With Butch & Sundance
- The Fatman Goes Seuss
- Sledding
Remembrances of Mark, Mike & Brad
- Mark B. Pence
- Mike Glassco
- Brad Pence: Reflections about My Big Brother
Holidays: 2021–2026
- Butterfly
- Heavy Tongue
- Dawn
- Peppermint Kite
- that forever
- For No One Anymore, Alas
Irene RIP
Maxi Riff
Senior Moments
Mishaps: 2004–2024
Serious Man: Another Try
- Happiness & Comfort
- Mindset: Growth or Fixed
- Health in Old Age
- Death
- Death, Really
- Afterlife
- Agnostic vs. Atheist
- Drop in the Ocean Analogy
- Grief
- Attitudes
Essay: Stuck in My Mind — Consciousness & Thought & AI
Hodgepodge
Emotions
Bayesian Consciousness
- Toilet Gurgle & Lost Check
- Imagination
- My Speculations
- Early Life & The Brain
- Subconscious Intuitions & Dreams
- Inexplicit Knowledge & Consciousness
- Language
- Imagination & Language & Thought & Metaphors
- Self-Awareness & Qualia
Speculations: Consciousness & Reality & Meaning
- Cultures & Relationships & Differences
- Consciousness Models & Beliefs
Imagination & Attitudes & Reality
- Free Will
- Imagination & Reality
Disassociation Between Language and Thought
- Commentary
- Jaynes' Bicameral Mind
Artificial Intelligence (AI)
- Preface
- Various Perspectives
Summary: If I'm wrong—I'm sure I am—it is still a marvel to imagine
Twice Farewell
Sources
- Nonfiction 142
- Fiction 70
- Videos 41
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